Conscious Partnership

I don't expect my husband's consciousness to be like mine.

If I were to call my spiritual consciousness the most important metric of consciousness, I might find the world quite lacking in conscious men.

But I have plenty of spiritual consciousness to facilitate partnership.

In fact, I know myself to have enough for multiple partnerships, even if my partners don't seem to share it or share my language and understanding around it.

If it's REAL spiritual consciousness, it's merely tiring, not injurious, to relate with others who do not share it.

My spiritual consciousness was developed in a realm where I was the only one. It is literally designed to operate alone within a village, plenty for everyone. My mother designed it that way, and it was plenty for everyone, right until she dropped dead and it all came crumbling down.

I have since moved myself from that loneliness, and I am surrounded by spiritually conscious people. I will never again hold this alone.

But that is only MORE reason why I don't seek a partner with the same or similar spiritual consciousness. I am not in need of spiritual consciousness. It is within me, and when I seek it outside me, it's all around.

The men I respect have material consciousness. They have ways of being in the reality and material of the world which I admire and from which I learn. I have respect for their material consciousness, regarding it as equally valuable and equally incomplete, in terms of grounding a whole human life, as my spiritual consciousness.

I feel grateful for men who bear the material that I might dwell more in the spiritual.

The men I share time with have respect for my spiritual consciousness. I do not ask that they share my spiritual consciousness, I only offer my attention to men who value and respect it, like they do not ask that I share their material consciousness, but share it with me that I might appreciate it. This is how we complement each other.

The material realm is where I follow him.

The spiritual realm is where he follows me.

I do not crave for that which I have in droves. I do not want to be replicated by my partner, I want to be complemented by him.

I want the equality of compatibility, not of sameness.

My husband is not a list of qualities.

My husband is a human man, a body I will know by the way my body feels in his presence.

I relax, knowing that I get to operate in my excellence while his excellence handles every other thing. When we are operating in our excellence, we are not together all the time, nor are we doing the same things.

We are TWO people.

We are two people so compatible that joining our lives frees our energy to infuse the whole village with provision, wisdom, and most of all, love.

I hope he has wildly different things to offer the world than I do. We will have a much greater impact that way.