Ever Wanting
"The problem is that I'm always wanting what I can't have."
Love, that’s not a problem. That's the deal with wanting. We want what we can't or don't have. Once we have it, we are HAVING it rather than wanting it, and it's a whole other orientation and beingness.
Wanting, Receiving, Having, and Releasing are the four phases of the Feminine Cycle of Manifestation.
Each of these phases has a beingness, an ontology, a set of interactions we have with the object/situation based on which phase we relate from.
When I want a thing, my relationship and activities around that thing are different from the moment I receive that thing, and different from how I relate to the thing when I have it, and different from how I relate to the thing when I release, lose, or spend it.
The problem is not that when you get what you want you want something else. That is the only way it could be.
The problem is that all your attention is focused on your wanting, on getting what you want, all your skill is in wanting and receiving, and your attention and skill on HAVING is atrophied by comparison.
The problem is you don't know how to focus your attention on the thing outside of the phases of wanting and receiving, you don't know how to relate to it from the stance of having.
We are all really good at wanting. We know how to want, to yearn, to pine, to long. We know how to bear going without, we know how to float on hope, we know how to strive. Most of us are even pretty good at receiving—we know how to get, how to acquire, how to accomplish, how to achieve.
These are the skills capitalism teaches, the skills capitalism wants us to have. Want and get, want and get! Capitalism does not want us skilled in having, nor willing to release. It wants us hungry, seeking, striving, acquiring, and then returning right back to scarcity where we are hungry.
The feminine cycle is about the FULLNESS of manifestation, the fullness of the experience of a reality coming into existence, asking that I accept new terms, asking that I live into new responsibilities and blessings, then ultimately releasing all I wanted, received, had, and became as a result of having.
Having is a state you have the opportunity to cultivate, if you are tired with your own insatiable wanting.
The insatiability of your wanting is perfectly correct.
You'll experience that rightness when you balance activities of wanting what you want with activities of having what you have.
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