Loyal, Disloyal

If I am loyal to a situation, I risk being disloyal to my experience.

If I am loyal to my experience, I risk being disloyal to a situation.

Loyalty is a beautiful value, and your experience of loyalty will vary drastically based on how you invest your loyalty.

I used to hold concepts of being loyal to a situation, most of all to a relationship.

I had this confused with being loyal to a person, which is a whole other thing.

Loyalty to a situation means staying no matter what experience is on offer. (This is NOT what it means to be loyal to a person, perhaps that will be a writing for another time, with a section on how this confusion serves those interested in exploiting and extracting from us.)

Loyalty to my experience means going where an experience I value is available, which risks disloyalty to any situation which does not provide me an experience I value.

This is different from being loyal to AN experience, though once again, confusion is implanted for purposes of convenient control. The idea that prioritizing my experience is the same thing as, for example, pleasure-seeking, allows those who wish to maintain my loyalty to the situation which benefits them to manipulate me with ideas of selfishness or imbalance if I prioritize my experience.

Loyalty to MY experience is something I had to get right with.

And I had to get right with being misunderstood, intentionally or unintentionally, by others who were attached to a situation and attempting to leverage my sense of loyalty to maintain it.

Loyalty to my experience is a holistic matter. It’s about my entire self interest, not just the parts that feel pleasurable right now. When I am truly loyal to THIS and not to any one state or any one situation, I am empowered and free, on purpose, in choice.

Owning this is what has healed many parts of me that were primed for manipulation.

I am not loyal to any situation.

I am loyal to my experience of my one and only life, which is for me.