Needlessly Partnered

I don't need a man to support me. Not to pay my bills or comfort me or hear me vent my emotions.

I don't have needs for a partner to meet.

AND, I no longer thrill at the idea of meeting a great man's needs, helping him, or serving him.

My nourishment is my responsibility, I resource with a wide community of family and friends, and I seek enriching service in the world. My desire to be of service does not need to enter my partnership realm.

I want the man who wants to spoil me. I want the man so nourished he doesn't have anywhere for me to help him.

I have delights and desires, creativity and an incredible capacity for pleasure. I want the man who wants to play with me in that realm.

My desire for him is the desire to devote to and delight in his every way of being. It is a privilege to witness a great man in his manhood, his boyhood, his vulnerabilities, his limitations, his superpowers, his WHOLE humanity. It is a privilege to know that not one of these places needs my "help;" my partner is the man I trust completely with every aspect of himself.

I want the man whose humanity inspires me to the actions of worship which make my system sing. My desire to be of service pales in comparison to my desire to worship, admire, and adore. (Energy is finite, spending energy on service, helping, fixing, etc. sucks energy which might be used to worship.)

I want the man who knows he is worthy to receive love in ease. I want the man who knows that his work and effort belong elsewhere in the world, that his offering to me is only in the realm of his truth, pleasure, play, and pure beingness.

I want a partnership of enjoyment, where we share the bounty of life's offering with clear and loving understanding that it's gift after gift.

I don't want to BE in a relationship.

I want my partner to be in my life, to watch my life slowly become our lives, but never become our life.

I want to allow the relationship to effortlessly and seamlessly coordinate to suit our enormity.

I want the connection that cannot be threatened by earthly circumstance, but flows stronger through our intimacy in each circumstance as it arises.

I want to choose each other over and over, without one speck of coercion.